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Ce n'ètait qu'un rêve
To a magic garden I did stray,
and woke up one enchanted day
to hear a harp and violins play.
Though just a dream,so beautiful,
more real than I can say.


Is it possible,I wonder,for a man to truly change? Or do character and habit form the immoveable boundaries of our lives?

::Alley Marie::



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Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Easy way out.

I really don't know why i put so much into it or analyze him so much. He gets so moody and i cant help but be put off by it. What the hell do you want? It seems at times i'm the only one who goes out of my way or cares at all. One day, he's talkative and the next day, silent. I have to beat one word out of him and i feel like i'm coming across as annoying and needy. If i were to say something, it would be misinterpreted and he'll make a big deal as if he's looking for a reason to be mad. I feel so foolish, i often question whether or not to invest anything into us but i so badly want it to work. It just seems easier and less painful to do as he does to me. Immature, maybe but this way i won't get to tangled up in what he's thinking and start a crazy spull. like am doing now? UGH.

  

Sarah is sooo dreamy. <333


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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Desperation,Concentration,and Frustration.

Posing in your fabulous world. Are people really like that or do they plan it to appear that way? Sadly, i'm leaning towards yes, they really ARE that fabulous. I've lost all interests and personality. Where did it go and when did it leave me? It's floating somewhere in a infinite abyss? I'm feeling the struggle more now than ever. What about the good girls? What do the good girls get for being good? I don't mean to come over as hard to understand, it just flows. My head is always so full of thoughts. One to another. Quickly and slowly. Sustaining a lifestyle of responsiblity has only made me feel like i'm vanishing away. I'm this walking zombie all the time. No one makes time for me, no one wants to be my friend. am I too simple? am i not complex enough or is it just the other way around? I'm incapable of answering my own questions.Life is passing me by,where do i stand?

 I don't care about money, I just want to be fabulous.



Currently listening to:
Patsy Cline's Greatest Hits
By Patsy Cline



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Beauty under the sea


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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Beautiful Mess?

Introductions are certainly overrated, I believe.

*opens the dirty closet....*

My dear lovelies...The rumours (the majority of them) are/were true. In the past five months, I've dated,been dumped,got back together,dropped out of college,got engaged, got un-engaged,concieved a child, reversed the child bearing process,lost friends,gained friends,almost moved to Georgia,lost my family's trust, got beaten to death with words,and hurt the ones I care about the most...Only to be back in the same place I was in the beginning- only this time around +dramatic and life changing experiences.

Bring on the next 5 months...!

Recent Music List:

Unwritten-Natasha Bedingfield

Leaving on a jet plane-Chantel Kreviazuk

Where have all the Cowboys gone-Paula Cole

Feelin' Love- Paula Love

Surrounded-Chantel Kreviazuk

Princes Familiar-Alanis Morrisette

Desperado-The Eagles

Take it to the limit-The Eagles

Morning Has Broken-Cat Stevens

I Believe In You-Celine Dion(en duo avec Il Divo)

Beautiful Mess-Diamond Rio

Someone Save My Life Tonight-Elton John

Bridge Over Troubled Water-Simon & Garfunkel

Imagine-John Lennon

Come Pick Me Up-Ryan Adams

Mary-Sarah Mclachlan

Silence-Sarah Mclachlan

Saves The Day- At Your Funeral

Rhiannon-Stevie Nicks + Fleetwood Mac

Amie-Pure Prairie League

Sweet The Sting- Tori Amos

With this Tear-Celine Dion

Love Will Keep Us Alive-The Eagles

My Man-The Eagles

Let your Heart Decide- Celine Dion

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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Sunday, July 10, 2005
Erasing you from my memory

Wow, I cannot sleep. It's a terrible feeling. I think I'll pop some Benedryl. I'm a tad confused on a few things. Wow. Just WOW.

Now, I shall bore ya with some random shit.

Likes                                          Dislikes                                
The word 'Wow'                           Lack of music played on 'MusicTeleVision'
Sexy Dreams                              MySpace Whores
Different Cultures                        California People.Most look identical.
Studying Religions                       Ignorance
Improving the world                    War
Hot military men                          Lack of originality
Black n' White Pictures                 Casual outlook on sex
Random,Weird Jewerly                 Disrespect towards woman
My I-pod                                     People getting killed over an I-pod
Katie Dunn's Paintings                  Scribbles named as ART
Southern Boys                             Predjudice
Orchids                                       Over-rated Hibiscus Flowers
Books                                         Ann Coulter Books
Winter Clothing                            Skanky Tramps
Owen Wilson                                Tom Cruise
Coffee Conversation                     Close minded people
Symbolic Tattoos                          Full sleeve naked women tattoos
Learning new Languages               Language Barriers
Prozac                                         Depression
Candles                                       Burning flesh
Sleeping                                      Sleeping away the day
Sangria                                        Plain Vodka
Politics                                         Current Political Leaders
Witty Photography                         'Bare my ass for all to see' Photography
Poetry                                          Emo-Teen Anguish Style






.........................................................Sleep Time.







 












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Monday, July 04, 2005
MEeeee

Name:Alleyse Marie

Birthday:9/15/87

Birthplace:Palm Springs,CA

Current Location: LQ,CA..Soon Portland,OR

Eye Colour: Blueish Green

Hair Colour: Auburn/Strawberry Blonde

Height:5'6"

Right handed or Left handed: Right

Heritage: French,Scottish, Spanish

Shoes you wore today: Barefoot

Your Weakness: Accents--Southern

Your Fears: Needles-Blah-Hate em'

Your Perfect Pizza: Whateverrrrrrrrr

Goal you would like to achieve this year: Quit smoking the Gonja & Cigs.

Your most overused phrase on instant messenger: LOL,LMAO,haha

Thoughts first waking up: Mehh..What time is it?

Your best physical feature: Stomach and hips...according to Adam

Your bedtime: Yeah right.

Your most missed memory: Being blissfully happy.

Pepsi or Coke: Diet Pepsi

Mcdonalds or Burger King: It's all the same shit to me.

Single or group dates? single

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Bleh, I hate Tea.

Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

Cappacino or Coffee: Decaf Vanilla Latte <3

Do you smoke: yea, but i'm quitting.

Do you swear: Hell yes

Do you sing: all the time

Do you shower daily: of course, afterall, its the best place to have sex...ha jokes.

Have you ever been in love: Yes..

Do you want to go to college: Starting in the fall

Do you want to get married: More than anything

Do you believe in yourself: yea, I'm a pretty cool broad.

Do you get motion sickness: no, i've gotten use to the motion of the ocean..ha

Do you think you're attractive: so-so

Are you a health freak: Absolutely not

Do you get along with your parents: Sometimes

Do you like thunderstorms? I suppose so. They don't come too often here.

Do you play an instrument: I learnt how to use a flute at band camp.

In the past month, Have you drank alcohol: yes

In the past month, Have you smoked: yes

In the past month, Have you been on drugs:yes

In the past month, Have you gone on a date:yes

In the past month, Have you been to the mall: actually,no

In the past month, Have you eaten a box of oreos: no

In the past month, Have you eaten sushi: yum but no

In the past month, Have you been dumped: no

In the past month, Have you gone skinny dipping: yes

In the past month, Have you stolen anything: No, fuck thieves

Ever been drunk: HELL YES

Ever been called a tease: muhaha

Ever been beat up: Fuck no. I'd kick ass

Ever shopifted: Honestly,no

How do you want to die: Ever seen The Notebook?

What do you want to be when you grow up: Work in politics,law, or even music.

What country would you like to visit: Italy,Scotland, and the South of France.


 

In a Boy/Girl...


 

Favourite Eye Colour: Brown or Green

Favourite Hair Colour: I couldn't care less

Short or long hair: Preferably short but I don't really care.

Height: Prefer tall but as long as they're taller than me..it's okay.

Weight: I have a nice size in mind but I like the smaller ones too. hehe

Best clothing style: Anything other than emo or x-core.

Number of drugs I have taken: Two...I think.

Number of CDs I own: Too many to even bother counting.

Number of Piercings:Three

Number of tattoos: Zero

Number of things in my past that I regret: Oi vey. I couldn't put a number on that one.







 









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Sunday, July 03, 2005
For the love of God...I want you to want me.

Okay, Today is the official 'Worship John Michael Montgomery' Day. I don't think you could fathom how much I'm in love with this man. I could honestly fall in love with someone because of their voice. haha no joke. I think that's what happened today. lol I'm such a goober, I know. I wish a guy would sing ' I could love you like that' to me. It would be all over if he did. I want that so incredibly bad, it's almost ridiculous. Any volunteers? hehe Here I am again, confused of what I want. How could I want something so badly that I know would be bad for me? I'm not talking about drugs, btw. Well, I suppose it could be a drug if you make it out that way. I'm totally,utterly,unbelievably in love but I'm 99% sure it wouldn't work out with him. What the FUCK?! Is it incredibly childish and stupid to dream of an everlasting love? I was ruffling through some old papers and pics today to keep me busy while awaiting each load of laundry to finish and I couldnt help but become absolutely emotional. Talk about a flashback. I found soooo many papers with' I love Will ' on them or Will with a heart around it or the classic 'Will and Alley'. Silly. Now that it's been so long, I'm not sure why I 'loved' him so much. I mistaked love with something i'm not sure of. I also found a black n' white picture of Rhett's name in the sand...........................I suppose I had forgotten to show him that. It doesn't really matter anymore, anyway. I really don't know what else to say about that so i'll just move on....yeah. It's almost time for Alley to move out and get her own little place. Amazingly weird. This should help my future career extremely, word! If things work out well enough then i'll get that internship at Capitol Hill. Wicked Sweet. It's quite enertaining that my dad isnt too pleased with my work choice. Being the fact that he's a realtor and republican...it makes sense. To be honest with you, I couldnt give a flying fuck...I wanna do this so I'm going to. Thank you very much. Time for me to go...listen to some Damien Rice and fold some MORE laundry. Perhaps, I'll pull out one of my favorites-The Rules of Attraction. Yeah, thanks.

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Saturday, June 18, 2005
...Hydroponic Pot...

New song to describe a lot of emotion...

You're too far to bring you close
And too high to see below
Just hangin' on your daily dose
I know you never needed anyone
But the rolling papers for your grass
How can you give what you don't have

You keep on aiming for the top
And quit before you sweat a drop
Feed your empty brain
With your hydroponic pot
Start out playing with yourself
You get more fun within your shell
Nice to meet you but I gotta go my way

I'll leave again `cause I've been waiting in vain
But you're so in love with yourself
If I say my heart is sore
Sounds like a cheap metaphor
So I won't repeat it no more

I rather eat my soup with a fork
Or drive a cab in New York
`Cause to talk to you is harder work

So what's the point of wasting all my words
If it's just the same or even worse
Than reading poems to a horse

You keep on aiming for the top
And quit before you sweat a drop
Feed your empty brain
With your hydroponic pot
I bet you'll find someone like you
`Cause there's a foot for every shoe
I wish you luck but I've other things to do

I'll leave again `cause I've been waiting in vain
But you're so in love with yourself
If I say my heart is sore
Sounds like a cheap metaphor
So I won't repeat it no more


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Sunday, June 12, 2005
Irrelevent ::{)i(}::

I'm BAAAACCCKKK!


Hi,My loves! I'm was just hanging out loading some more songs onto my iPod and I thought "What a perfect oppurtunity to update my Blog!" I think I gave up on it for awhile. Life had become so hectic and fun at the same time..I just couldn't bring myself to sit down here and write about it. With Adam coming into my life, it made things change irrevocably. <3 What a freakin whirlwind. That boy is a bad influence on me...haha! I would mention the things he's talked me into doing but I really shouldnt. Sometimes, I have moments of thought where i'll just really wish that things could have just somehow paused as they were earlier. When I was at a uninformed insanity,I had(or was in the state of mind that I did) Mr. Right and was just estatic about being in love and everything would be happy ever after. ah well. Maybe it will be like that, again? Hope so. Wow, this entry isn't going well (haha) and I'm running out of time! I'm going to the movies with my *Girlfriend* tonight. Sweeeet! I just have to wait until she gets off work..Sigh. I'll have to do a finish up on this later. Mucho Amor! xox KISSES

 

                                                          Alley is the Sexx.

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Wednesday, May 18, 2005
New Perspective

Unbelievable. I say such cruel things out of anger-it's terrible. I thought I should update because my last entry doesn't quite reflect how I've felt lately. I did feel that way for a long time but this past week has actually been not so bad. I'm working on a lot of things and my attitude has changed drastically. I finally feel like i'm back to my own self. SIGH. Happy! I've been keeping busy and that's the key. Sure, I miss a lot of freedom or those stupid fun things i'd do back in the day but...I'm sure it's for the best. If anything, it could be just a break. I'm not saying things are perfect because well, they certainly are far from it but we're having progress. Last weekend was pretty crazy! Friday-I had rehearsal for my pop's wedding then the rehearsal dinner. Later on, I went to the River with a few old buddies which i'll honestly say-went a bit blah...talking about their boyfriends doesn't equal much fun for me..ya know? haha Saturday was the wedding so there was a bit of preparation for that...6:00pm May 14th my daddy and Anne were married :) It was so adorable-everything i'd want my wedding to be. The reception was sooo much fun. I danced a bit with Todd and my dad. Also, Taylor. I <3 her! THE coolest 10 yr old EVER! Afterwards, I spent the night at Todd's house and that was interesting....I was pretty faded and he kept trying to hook up with me...AH! These things always seem to happen to me haha all well...i'm over it. We're going to the gym together tomorrow-WORD! lmao Alright...i'm gonna go..I'll update later! xoxo

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